i love Proof. the movie.


i think it's one of the best movies i've seen in recent times. and i love, love, love Gwyneth Paltrow. i think she's brilliant.


and this is the only thing that's ever made me wish that i hadn't donated all my math books. it's not like i was ever great in math or anything, but this movie sort of reminded me of the rush you get from solving problems. it actually makes me want to sit down with my books and start doing calculus all over again. in fact, that was one of my (several thousand) grand plans that never really worked. somehow, i always wanted to go back and do a lot of calculus. probably just so i could prove to myself that i'm not stupid after all, but then it just never happened. it just turned into one of those things.


but i still miss that high.


i wish i hadn't given up or let go so easily...


ah well.