i'm confused and worried and maybe a little pissed but i can't tell.
for the most part, i feel indifferent and that's always a little disconcerting for me. not knowing if i care or not. not knowing if it matters or not. not knowing if i want this. not knowing if i want to put my present on hold for a future that may or may not be.

may be this is just smoke deprivation. or lethargy. or isolation.
may be i just feel a bit trippy at this time of the night.
may be.
may be is a strange word.
may be.